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Here is a dilemma, which is kind of hilarious and also sad. After the big closet clean-out , I was able to give most of my clothes to pie , ...

We are now live! Conde Nast is pleased to present Elastic Waist . I'll be writing a daily weight blog round up, but the real draw, you...

Note One: I have officially lost one hundred and four pounds. Or, 104. Or, ONE HUNDRED AND FOUR. That is a lot of goddamn pounds. It is more...

For those of you who say I don't post enough (which is everyone including my mother), what you'll find over here will probably make...

I updated the look of this site (sleek! sexy!) and updated my links (you are so sleek! you are so sexy!) after I realized both were horribly...

I took a vacation, not so long ago. A week with friends, down at Joshua Tree. I was unhappy about the flight, because I am always unhappy ab...

The thing about having been skinnier than this, but also way fatter than this, is that I am suddenly trapped in a terribly unfashionable in-...

I crossed my legs. I sat on the couch, and swung one leg over the other, and pointed my toe, and there I was, sitting on the couch with my l...

The weight is falling off so quickly, now – two pounds, three pounds, five pounds a week, gone (and I want to say gone forever, but there ar...

Started off in tight size 28W pants. Today: size 20. 20 R Mood: Like, whoa. More to come. (p.s. they look so tiny . am i really that tiny?)

Some people call them yay moments, or Aha moments, or smilestones, but I will tell you right now, I will kill myself flat dead before I allo...

When I first read about it – how losing weight so quickly will make you super crazy ("It's like you have PMS all the time!" th...

I have bought new pants, and they are beautiful pants which I cannot take off, because I don't have any other pants because my laundry c...

It is amazing how the numbers look so different, on the way down instead of heading up into super terrifying morbid obesity land. 257 is a n...

I am stupid to not have added a huge thank you to all of you who wrote me such supportive and kind emails and posted such great comments. Th...

So, that happened. How was your week? Oh, ho ho. I will go into further detail later, in a post to be entitled "Holy Fuck, Think Twice,...

So it's actually tomorrow, then, for real and true. I had meant to write things down, before it was 14 hours away, but it turns out that...

Oh, holy shit. Do you know how far away my surgery date is? It is practically tomorrow. It's like, an hour and a half from now. The anes...

We took pictures of me last night, front back and side, the way you are supposed to for your very important Record of Weight Loss, and let m...

I quit smoking! It has been five weeks. Every one of which has been deeply unpleasant. When I quit smoking (and I have quit smoking many tim...

The sad thing about not chronicling all the seconds that pass as they are passing right that second is that you forget what you've done ...

Hi! It’s been awhile. It’s been a busy couple of months. I was finishing up grad school, and working on a thesis, and neglecting my entire h...

If I am ready to consider something as major as major surgery, then I am ready to lose weight. I did not intend to spend the time between no...

I post dramatically about major surgery, and then I go away. That's awesome. I'm sorry. So this is the deal – I spent the whole day ...

Already, I'm imagining how I am going to be, a year from now, and I haven't even totally decided that that's what I want to do, ...

Hallo! I do not know how fat I am! I am sure it is pretty fat, but right now, I do not care. But this is not the ordinary not really caring...

Here is a secret: if I stop writing here for months at a time, it probably means that I am dead. Either dead, or have fallen off the wagon s...

"Splenda" would make a really great name for a dog, wouldn't it? Either a dog, or a first-born. Tumor.

The day before Thanksgiving, I weighed in, and lost a comparatively disappointing three pounds, which adds up to a not very disappointing 19...

It's been three weeks, now. I have officially lost 16 pounds, and tomorrow, I find out what my third week total is. 16 pounds seems like...